I had one meal since the 8th and the rest were probably idk what. Its not that im purposely not eating.I force myself to eat but nothing goes down, I look at the food feeling already full even before eating. I dont have any appetite or mood to swallow anything at all. Why is it when I close my eyes your face automatically appears, I try to search through my mind for other things to think about and hopefully i'll drift off to sleep. But no matter how hard I search it always goes back to you, goes back to us, goes back to the places we've been together, goes back the love story I never thought would end or at least end this soon.

Im just going to suffer in this silence, and hope it'll kill me before I kill myself.
I know I have to let you go, but I just dont want to yet. Even if you've long given up and let me go,even if I dont matter to you anymore, I just want to keep holding on.
I guess humpty dumpty had a greatgreatbig fall, no amount of glue or time can piece him back together, and even so, it'll never ever be the same again.