I literally cried for 15hours or more until I was too tired and fell asleep.
I woke up and the first thing that came to my mind was you,I wanted to pick up my phone and text 'goodmorning love' but no, youre really no longer my love and this isnt a dream.
This is reality, no matter how many times im going to wake up it will not change. I just dont want to wake up.
I used my pillow to cover my head and say 'dont think dont think dont think' so thoughts of you will not come into my head, but who am I kidding, that obviously does not work.
Even as im typing this, the tears keeps flowing, who'd have thought I'd still have that much tears after crying almost a day.
I dont know how to heal myself. But I asked for this, I knew this will happen but whatever the case, i'd still go over and over with you in heartbeat. Reason why I could possibly feel so hurt even though its the second time because you just mean so much. I dont know how much I mean to you but I know its definitely less than what you mean to me.
why must I always fuck things up.Thing were going well but I, ME yes ME have to screw it up by making you feel uncomfortable and everything.
It really hurts hearing 'i dont love you anymore' from someone you are still so crazy in love with.
The pain im feeling now is skin deep.
Ive no one to confide in.