I'm sitting in the car looking outside the window, funny how it always pours so heavily whenever we go through this.first breakup and now this.

Don't count on anyone to be there for you cos truth of the matter is, no one will.Even in darkness my own shadow leaves. I don't need anyone, I don't need anyone's sympathy or concern or anything. I don't need comforting I don't want any of those. I may be crying over spilt milk but at least I'm real and this is who I am. I appear to be strong but underneath all that, I'm a crushed soul.crushed from not just a broken love,but crushed from being such a failure all the time, crushed for being so useless, crushed from every tiny setback. So to everyone out there, you're free to wak in and out of my life as and when you like because I'm not going to care, because I've lost the only one that matter alrdy.

And I thought even the slightest feelings be it whether it comes and go, should give anyone a reason to stay on in the rls. As long as its there you shldnt give up, not determine by whether its enough for you or not.its a 2 ppl thing, but somehow my feelings are being compromised, I'm forced to just stop whatever feelings I have for you and treat you as a friend? I don't know how. And it pains me to just not talk to you as always. Tell me what to do cos I rather just die to stop all of this