I seem to have lost the ability to smile.

Have you seen a walking zombie? No? Just look at me.
This mrng when I woke up and my body felt so light but thankfully the fever subsided. Yours truly still did the unthinkable and ran from my house to coronation plaza cos I knew bala was there.An hour ten mins? Kudos to me. If you were still here, id probably be texting you overjoyed with my achievement but no I wasnt the least happy either. You'll probably say im stupid for not resting after a fever, but I dont need the rest. What I need is you, but sadly that wont happen.
I ran till my legs hurt so badly cos I havent been running for so long, ran till my tummy had that same acute pain. And while I ran, I cried. Suckiest part was when it started to drizzle and it got heavier and I had to stop at a busstop. Sounds dramatic? Well is the truth.
and when I finally reached coro, I had to put on a smiling face and pretend nothings wrong. You know how tiring that is?Not laughing or smiling from the heart? Let me tell you, imagine somehow pushing your head into the water and preventing you from coming up, and when your head emerges from the water, you smile before going down again. Yeah thats how it feels like when I fake a smile.

when we laugh or cry its together; but im crying alone and youre not here.
Monday when I take my TP I was planning to have you there for support but looks like ive to be there alone too. When I do get my license I really just want to drive aimlessly.