I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK I WANT YOU BACK

WHY DONT YOU WANT ME BACK.

I chose to stay home today cos no one's at home, and I can cry my lungs out without anyone having to hear me. Its so tiring crying in my bed and holding back my sobs and sniffing quietly so my sister wouldnt hear. I sometimes almost choke on my own tears. Now that I can cry out loud, it doesnt feel any better either. It makes me feel so alone. I know you're still there but its not like how I want you to stay. I want you to want me back so badly, but why must I always have to plead and beg you to stay? Why cant you see for yourself that you're making a terrible mistake letting this 14 mths of relationship go?

No more romantic love you say, I know theres still some bit of it, but to you, you need a whole lot of it in order to stay on in a relationship. Even if you ever did think twice about this second breakup and wanting me back , I can see why you wont ask me. Cos you know that i'll still be hurt? I dont know when is ever the right time to break up, but all I know is that even if I had a little bit if feelings for you ,i'd hold onto this rls like i'd hold on for my life. But you just let go and let me fall.

I really really really try so hard to make our time together the happiest and last long, and give you enough happy memories so that when the end of our time gets closer, when THIS happens, it'll not really be the end. But somehow its never enough. You still want it to end. Surely friends will be better, but thats if I dont have to look at you and think back of our happy relationship. You said after we patched back that you realised you dont love me anymore, so all these while you were just waiting for the right time to break up again? I cannot say you didnt try, I know you did. Trying to find yourself being crazy in love with me again. But after all the things that happened, I know you have your phobia, but if you let them down im sure things might be different. You wanted to turn around in bed and hug me so badly, you could have why didnt you? It would have meant so much to me.I know you wanted to , but I dont know what stopped you.

we both once said 'unconditional love' is the kind of love that exists between us. It means to love someone regardless of their qualities or actions. where did our unconditional love go to?

Do I ever cross your mind ? Do you ever stop to think and regret your decision?

I want you to hold me like you always do when its raining and protect me from the sounds of the thunder. I want to feel that right now.